I have been on Phase One of Bob Greene since the beginning of the year, mainly because I haven’t had a full four weeks of sticking to it. It isn’t working for me. In fact, on Sat. 2/23 I hopped on the scale because I was feeling heavier, and as I suspected I shot up four pounds. That was it. I pulled out my aresenal of books, including all my weight watchers books. I didn’t join, but I started the program.
I have been counting points for two weeks now. I am ecstatic because I have lost 12 pounds. I realize that is just the water loss, but it’s still a boost to my ego. And I need that emotional high to keep me going.
My husband used to say that he could tell when I was on a diet and exercise routine for six weeks, because that was about the time that I would quit. Why is that? Isn’t that the right time for it to be a habit, solidly placed in my routine? But at six weeks I subconsciously decided that it was long enough and I would stop. In the last couple of years I have really declined, only sticking to a “healthy, new life” for a week or less. But I have surpassed one week this time.
Yesterday was not my best day. It wasn’t really bad, but just not really good. Today I was inclined to follow yesterday’s pattern. Old habits pull so strong on me. I have been walking around all morning talking to myself. Please don’t give up. Please be strong. Please keep going. It feels so good and it will feel even better. You can do this. Please don’t give up. Please be strong.