Two lessons

By Jen

I learned a couple of good lessons this weekend.

I visited my family, including my terminally ill father.  I was stressed and anxious about a lot of things.  Consequently, I let my guard down.  I wasn’t as vigilant about what I ate and how much water I consumed (not enough).  And then after dinner, I ate a dessert that I would not normally have even looked at.  It was a slice of cheesecake, and not the good kind, but that wretched too-sweet mass-produced crap that one finds in grocery stores.  I ate an over-sized slice and felt ill immediately afterward.

I’m not actually beating myself up over this.  I’ve been home for two days and have gotten completely back on track.  I’m eating properly, drinking lots of water, and exercising daily.  I am merely reflecting on the lessons I’ve learned.
The first lesson is that I need to be mindful at all times, even during stressful periods, as much as is possible.  My father is going to die — most likely this year and possibly within the next few months — and the end is going to be very hard.  I’m going to have to pay attention and really think about what goes in my mouth.  I need to remember not to eat mindlessly.  I’m not actually worried about stress eating — I think I’ve finally broken that habit — but I will very likely forget that I don’t want to eat some of the crappy food that will be available to me and that I’ll feel unwell afterward, which is that last thing I’m going to need during what will be a very stressful time in my life.

The second lesson is about forgiveness.  If I do fall off track during those stressful days in my life, it’s not the end of the world.  I’m not going to berate myself or feel down about food.  I’m just going to pick myself up, dust the cookie crumbs off myself, and start all over again.  I’ll put on my sneakers and go for a walk.  Everything will ultimately be okay.


4 responses to “Two lessons

  1. Hey Jen. I don’t normally read your posts over here, but glad I did this time.
    You sound very pragmatic, good on you.

  2. Hi Jen – you’ve got a great attitude. I’ve been jotting down the odd note about how I’ve felt during or after eating in my food journal. Especially if I overeat and make myself feel ill. Somehow writing it down helps me retain the lesson a bit better.

  3. Ug. I do the “sadness eating” and it DRIVES ME INSANE!

    I am trying to focus and eat better, but I am sad about… get this… not being pregnant. So I eat three cookies that I don’t have the points for.

    Trying to focus.

    WILL focus.

  4. These are very good lessons – for me, too. Thanks, Jen. And I am really sorry about your dad. It must be so hard on all of you.

    Hugs! Heidi

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